I have no idea what is next.

I just found this post in my "drafts" this is from this summer (summer 2014) right before getting married. It's amazing how much of your worry can be handled in just a few months. God is good, actually He's great.

I'll post an update, soon!

For now, here's an old post from May 2014 that I forgot to post:


Anyone else like me? Constantly NEED to be in control? Well.. The time has come where I cannot be
in control. I am about 3 weeks from my wedding and will finally be joining my fiancé in Lafayette, Indiana where he has been living since July.

There are about 670 what if's that are constantly running through my mind and lately it's growing stronger and stronger. I've had the same AMAZING job for the past 3.5 years... Working as the Marketing Manager for the BEST Dermatologist in Atlanta (I'm not lying... Jezebel magazine named Atlanta Dermatology & Laser Surgery best dermatologist for 2014 & 2013), I have spent my entire relationship long distance (before moving to Indiana... Matt lived 3 hours away in our college town) and I've been fortunate enough to have TONS of amazing friends nearby as most people I went to college with moved to Atlanta or I've met through my incredible church home (Buckhead Church). What is scary is that is all about to change.

Starting today at 5:00pm I became.. "Unemployed" and boy does that scare me. I had to say goodbye to my job as I am getting ready to move on to a new state, where I'm very excited to eventually (hopefully soon) start a new amazing job. But... It's scary to think I may not be bringing in a steady incomefor a while and scarier.. Think of all the bad bad TV I can accomplish while bored at home... Okay, I NEED TO FIND A JOB!

Also, in about 3ish weeks I'll be living with the most wonderful man in the world that has happened to always want to stay hours away from me (lol). It's a bit intimidating at times to think about going from long distance.. to seeing him... ALL THE TIME!

Last but not least I am about to move to a BRAND NEW city in the Midwest where in retrospect I don't know... pretty much anyone!

What's keeping me sane? My faith. I know it sounds nuts but I'm ready (well at moments I'm ready, other moments I have emotional panic attacks... But let's ignore that). I think it's kinda encouraging to know that The Lord has put this change in my life and Matt's life for a reason. It's going to really force us to focus on our marriage and this new change in our lives. I am not denying the fact that the adjustment to living with a guy is going to be a new experience, especially a guy like Matt who honestly watches EVERY SINGLE SPORT (golf, tennis, soccer, football, baseball, basketball, WWE wrestling*, NASCAR .. And many others).  AND  let's not discredit the fact that marriage in general is HARD as is and takes constant work. I have a strong feeling there will probably be some nights where we both wonder why we signed up to be permanent roommates - but I am confident in the fact that  The Lord has put all this change on our plate for something bigger and better.

While I am still very very VERY nervous and stressed due to the fact that a lot is unknown, it is encouraging to know that The Lord does know wasssup for me! Although... I am still requesting prayers for my peace... Largely so I don't drive my fiancé (and almost husband)  CRAZY.

Thanks for your constant support!

Xo

***wwe wrestling is so not a real sport, sorry matty!