I have no idea what is next.

I just found this post in my "drafts" this is from this summer (summer 2014) right before getting married. It's amazing how much of your worry can be handled in just a few months. God is good, actually He's great.

I'll post an update, soon!

For now, here's an old post from May 2014 that I forgot to post:


Anyone else like me? Constantly NEED to be in control? Well.. The time has come where I cannot be
in control. I am about 3 weeks from my wedding and will finally be joining my fiancé in Lafayette, Indiana where he has been living since July.

There are about 670 what if's that are constantly running through my mind and lately it's growing stronger and stronger. I've had the same AMAZING job for the past 3.5 years... Working as the Marketing Manager for the BEST Dermatologist in Atlanta (I'm not lying... Jezebel magazine named Atlanta Dermatology & Laser Surgery best dermatologist for 2014 & 2013), I have spent my entire relationship long distance (before moving to Indiana... Matt lived 3 hours away in our college town) and I've been fortunate enough to have TONS of amazing friends nearby as most people I went to college with moved to Atlanta or I've met through my incredible church home (Buckhead Church). What is scary is that is all about to change.

Starting today at 5:00pm I became.. "Unemployed" and boy does that scare me. I had to say goodbye to my job as I am getting ready to move on to a new state, where I'm very excited to eventually (hopefully soon) start a new amazing job. But... It's scary to think I may not be bringing in a steady incomefor a while and scarier.. Think of all the bad bad TV I can accomplish while bored at home... Okay, I NEED TO FIND A JOB!

Also, in about 3ish weeks I'll be living with the most wonderful man in the world that has happened to always want to stay hours away from me (lol). It's a bit intimidating at times to think about going from long distance.. to seeing him... ALL THE TIME!

Last but not least I am about to move to a BRAND NEW city in the Midwest where in retrospect I don't know... pretty much anyone!

What's keeping me sane? My faith. I know it sounds nuts but I'm ready (well at moments I'm ready, other moments I have emotional panic attacks... But let's ignore that). I think it's kinda encouraging to know that The Lord has put this change in my life and Matt's life for a reason. It's going to really force us to focus on our marriage and this new change in our lives. I am not denying the fact that the adjustment to living with a guy is going to be a new experience, especially a guy like Matt who honestly watches EVERY SINGLE SPORT (golf, tennis, soccer, football, baseball, basketball, WWE wrestling*, NASCAR .. And many others).  AND  let's not discredit the fact that marriage in general is HARD as is and takes constant work. I have a strong feeling there will probably be some nights where we both wonder why we signed up to be permanent roommates - but I am confident in the fact that  The Lord has put all this change on our plate for something bigger and better.

While I am still very very VERY nervous and stressed due to the fact that a lot is unknown, it is encouraging to know that The Lord does know wasssup for me! Although... I am still requesting prayers for my peace... Largely so I don't drive my fiancé (and almost husband)  CRAZY.

Thanks for your constant support!

Xo

***wwe wrestling is so not a real sport, sorry matty!

Fast Forward Two Years...

Well, a lot has changed in my life since my last blog post, over 2 years ago and I think I should start doing what I've always enjoyed, writing... again!

Now, I'm not promising you a TRUE blog post right now, I can't perform under this pressure. But, what I will promise you is a few updates on my life and I can promise you a another blog post.. soon ;) (HA HA, you've heard that before)

So, Two Years summed up in a few bullets: 

1. I've lost over 40 pounds (58 pounds total if you add in the 16 I lost in college). Yay! As I am sure many of you understand, college makes you gain weight. You are eating crap food at crap hours, not getting in enough sleep- which causes you to well.. not work out and it's just an endless cycle. As a Weight Watchers Lifetime member since I lost 86 pounds in the 10th grade, I knew that I need to get back on the bus again. I gained back way too much weight that I worked so hard to lose. So i finally rededicated myself and now I am 6.2 lbs away from being at my goal weight, again! Stay tuned for a blog post on my tips, recipe ideas and more. If you have any questions feel free to post below too, I'll also include some before and afters on weight-loss blog post. (FYI: I am in no way an expert.. so, i can't guarantee it's gonna work for you or anyone, but I hope it does!)

2. I met a boooooyyyyyy. Actually, I already knew him, but... It took him about 3 years to work up the courage to ask me out and it took me too long of playing 'hard to get' to finally go on a date with him. You see Matty boy used to be umm, crazy? Not like cray cray crazy, but loud.. wild and obnoxious (i'm sorry, babe!) Now, while I am loud-  I am used to myself, thankfully during the 3 years before asking me out he has grown up a lot and I was crazy not to accept his offer to let him take me out on a swanky date, sooner.

3. Me and that boy.... are engaged! Yay! I am so lucky that I get to spend the rest of my life with someone as loving, compassionate and handsome as he is! Sad news, he recently accepted a job at Purdue University (yay for him!) so we will be spending the next 10 months long distance until we get married in June and I join him in Indiana. Fact is our entire relationship has been long distance.. we started out 3 hours a part but now I guess that wasn't far enough, so he added about 7 more hours and we are now 10 hours apart. From my experience with long distance, it's always possible but takes diligence, trust and a lot of work, just like any relationship. There are so many people that have/ are going through a similar experience as I am - so, I will happily share my experience and I hope that you will share yours with me! There's strength in numbers!

4. I was Baptized. I accepted Jesus as my savior back in August of 2009 but I wanted a way to finally profess my faith, publicly. So, in August 2011 I was baptized at my church home, Buckhead Church. As someone who did not grow up in the church I was never baptized and felt I was called to share my story. My life has been significantly different since accepting Christ. I am not saying that magically everything in my life has been AMAZING and It's like walking on clouds and spitting out rainbows- definitely none of that. But, I have had a restored strength in my life because I know I am not going through my life alone and my life has a purpose. Again, as someone that did not grow up in the church I was always uncomfortable when people tried to jam their religious views down my throat, so I will NEVER do that to you - but I will share my thoughts from time to time and if you ever have questions or comments, I am happy to answer. Here is the video of my Baptism from almost 2 years ago :) http://vimeo.com/28366918


Blogging has served as a way for me to communicate my feelings, thoughts and life - I think it's time I start back, hopefully I won't bore you too much :)

xoxo

My New Pup, Zoey. She'll be 1 in September

My Fabulous Fiance, Matt